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After a few weeks of consideration I've decided to start writing a blog about my experiences of Mental Health. As you may have gathered from the title, I have anxiety, and I'm an involvement worker. Well I have two post, one is working in involvement for a prominent mental health charity. The second is as a engagement worker (a great job for someone who suffer from social anxiety). As you may have guest (from the previous sentence) I have anxiety.

I'm out as a suffer of Mental Health, and it something I have no problem speaking about.... well expect it is. I have a large problem speaking about my own mental health, how my own experience affect me. I lie about how I feel, including to myself. Recently I was reflecting on a situation in work, where I had started to come up with so many reason about why I was doing something, that I never reflected that a major part of the reason was because of feeling that had caused anxiety within me). I saw it as a failure within myself, that I couldn't even admit the real reason to myself. Even too as late a three weeks ago I was still justifying reason why I wasn't using my office which didn't admit to my anxieties.

For the last few weeks I've been feeling depressed. I put a lot of pressure on myself to run a great event at work, which didn't go so well at all and I've felt really down ever since. I've not slept very well. I'm writing today having taken the rest of this week off work (in my own AL) to get better.

From time to time, I'm going to write some thought about how I'm feeling, to share my experiences of mental health