When your body is Morrisons, but your mind is anywhere but

As you may have read from previous post, I struggle to sometimes put things in boxes. When I feel things don't go well they resonate within my mind. I go over them over and over again, trying to work out what I could do differently. I often can't see the positives for the negatives.

This happened recently with the event that hadn't gone so well. Two days after the event I was   doing my weekend shopping in Morrisons (other supermarkets are available, however I would suggest avoiding Tesco's). During the then I had been going over the event two days before, not constantly put it kept dropping back into my mind). I was thinking about the event as I went shopping (I was kind of hoping the shopping would distract me). However I kept coming over in coming back to the event, I couldn't stop going over what I would change.

Whilst I was shopping I heard somebody calling my name, I got the impression that they'd been calling it for a while, it turned out to be one of the volunteers at RBUF ( the charity I at as Chair for). I think it's great that we have been able to develop such a wonderful community within the charity is sometimes just interesting that I can be sometimes too anxious to take part in the peer support we've developed)    

When the volunteer was saying Hi to me in Morrison I was not within the supermarket (I was physically but within my mind I was somewhere completely different) I'd somewhat zoned out part of me from the activity I was doing was going back to the issues causing me distress. This isn't the only time I've zoned out, I suppose my recent car accident was a result of me zoning out for a time whilst at the traffic lights to focus a little more on the issues causing me distress.

One of the issues I personally out of my mental health is that I can't switch off. If I feel I've let people down it haunt me for week.  I can appear to be quite well whilst this is going on, taking part in normal activities (such as shopping in Morrision) but within my mind it's somewhere different. This is one of the things with mental health nobody can see when you're not well (where you can see if somebody's got a physical injury)